It’s a beautiful sunny day out there today, and it feels like the perfect time for a fresh start.
Change is always stressful, but as some wise, yet it seems anonymous person, once said, ‘If nothing ever changed, there’d be no butterflies’, and who would want to live in a world without butterflies?
So things have changed again for me. After a bad night’s sleep last night, I’m being gentle with myself today. However, from tomorrow things change. The best way to feel good about yourself has to be to keep yourself physically fit and healthy and do things you enjoy. So I am running in the morning (no excuses!) and working hard during the day getting my article ready to send off to an academic journal. I need to keep telling myself how proud of myself I will feel if I get published.
Then, in the early evening I have booked myself a place at a yoga class with my old teacher – Julian Daizan Skinner. He truly is remarkable both as a teacher and a person. If he can’t get me back on the road to happiness, then nobody can.
I am going to put into perspective the distractions that fuel my depression, low self-esteem and self-doubt (facebook, obsessive email checking, stupid online games and so on) and reap the benefits of using my time effectively. I will live my own life, focus on what I want for the future and value my own achievements. All this I promise to myself, and by writing it down here make that promise public.
